I haven't had a girlfriend since the first half of freshman year. I finally found someone I want to be with and it seems like I might get my chance. She broke up with her boyfriend and was looking for a new one. The day I go to make my move I am told of how she was with some other guy at a different school.. Once again I felt cheated. Few weeks pass. My eyes come to this girl I've known for a while now. I really like her. Like really really like her. Me and some friends including her were hanging out last night. I felt I had a chance. That I could really be in a relationship with her. All I got was a flattened heart. One of my friends starts reading texts from her phone about her and some boy. To make things worse she later kisses me on the cheek. Might as well slapped me. It felt the same as such.
On top of all this my familiar passed away a couple days ago. We've been together since i was in elementary school. When I brought her home from the shelter she was so skittish. She immediately ran behind the couch. I spent every day for the longest time trying to get her to come out. I would lay down on the floor, put a treat in my hand and offer it to her. Eventually she would eat it and some time later she would actually come out to let me pet her. She started following me everywhere. Stuck by my side where ever I went. Laid right next to my head at night. Sat in the chair next to me during meals. Never left me. She always knew how I was feeling and she always tried to help when she could. She wasn't a pet to me. She was my best friend. I miss Clair so much.
